hello you (:

hmmm, i have not blogged for a few days? had Love PL camp. then had prefects day camp after that. Love PL camp was ok lah. had three sermons in one and a half days. haha. quite interesting though, the sermon about identity especially. i must constantly remind myself. haha.

then had prefects day camp the next day, went early to set up all the stuff as usual. then had steamboat, and there was something wrong with the electricity at first, so when my steamboat pot was boiling, all the rest weren't working! haha. cos mine functions on gas. haha. then thanks to all the prefects who helped me to keep my PA stuff=)!! watched phantom of the opera with adel and yin. it's a SUPER nice show!! i think it had the same kind of effects as TROY? it's like, tension build up, in the end something happens, makes ppl feel like crying. ya. but it was SUPER LONG. 2 hours+? had to pee before and after the movie! haha. we were late for the movie, but luckily it started late. haha.

went to sch for cca cum prefects meeting today. well, cca ended at 6+ about 7? and we went there at 12 lah. think we super slack, cos we dunno what to do all that, so just laze around lor. had prefects meeting all that, then wanted to eat!! no time to eat lunch, had one fererro rocher for breakfast. haha. then finally reached home at 7+> went to buy food. then came home and ate. i ate A LOT!! overeating. haha. i'll grow fat.

think miss ferng's soursop sweet is kinda dangerous for me to consume. i almost coughed to death after eating all. nothing happened to all the rest, but i think it was too sweet for me or something? water didnt help lor. haha. i just coughed and coughed. think i said something stupid today. i was like telling miss ferng, "what's your problem?". when it was supposed to be, "what's the problem?". cos i was supposed to record all the problems they had in the various places, and she was like "wanzhen!!". and i took out my notebook, and was like, "yes miss ferng? what's your problem?". hahaha. they all laughed lah? and i corrected myself. i'm so dumb. dumb ass lah. haha.

to you,
don't believe you can find it on your own,
we'll be there to support you.
dont think that we don't understand what you're going through,
we do.
don't try to push us away,
cos we know,
that you're not doing this of your own accord.
we just wish,
and it's our prayer,
that you'll fight this battle through.

uncared, unloved.
no one can tell what i'm feeling.
even my own friends don't seem to care?
i'm just too far away from them.
don't understand what i want.
i need love, care, attention.
you're not giving me any.
what are friends for?
for you to entertain them when they're sad or weary?

as for you,
i'm sorry for pushing you away.
i didn't mean it this way.
i just feel so unwanted?
feel that apples aren't sweeter than oranges.
sometimes i wonder whether is it because you haven't seen the rotten side of the apple?
that's why you just love to eat apples?
but oranges are sweeter?
and they contain more vitamin c.

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