i'm feeling tired. haha. it's really rare if i don't feel tired in the night. just came back from church. the once united biblelite cell is broken into bits and pieces, strewn all over the place. i don't really know what is happening, and i'm not even sure whether i really care.
so many feelings throughout the week, mostly negative feelings. feelings of anger and irritation. to a certain sense i can say i feel appalled. appalled at the insanely retarded numbness. i don't even know whether i need a person to talk to. haha. because i believe nobody lasts.
this kind of attitude will seriously get me nowhere. and i know i have to change. the pride, the ego, the stubborness. but seeing ppl with the same attitude just refuses to let me budge. especially when we start quarrelling. it's because of pride isn't it.
being a 2-faced person isn't going to work for long you know. no one is innocent.
and if everytime we have to quarrel when we talk, we might as well don't. save you the trouble since you're so busy.
you see. all the different paragraphs refer to different people. since i don't know how to say it in your face, i'll just say it now.
`i'm changed. no longer the same.
11:03 PM
