i feel so spritually dry. my relationship with God is strained. i feel so distant. i've managed to grip hold of Him, but somehow i faded away again. and i feel that people around me, can really get on my nerves at times. and i think i'm going to lock my blog soon. because i don't want certain people to read it. maybe i'll change it. i'm not sure.
that is if i have the time.
sometimes a kind intention can twist into a disastrous ending.
and i really hate it whenever that happens. i seem to get words forced down my throat. i can shout. but i choose not to. what's the point of blowing things up? i really don't know. sometimes your pride gets in the way, at the expense of the friendship. maybe it's mine too. i can't really see things in a clear light like they used to be.
hugs are meant for people who need one. but apparently i don't really want it any more. hugs are a show of love. but you know. people don't really like to hug. ( pertaining to girls ONLY) and sometimes life is so pointless because i lost my purpose.
i'm struggling hard with my problems. i try to defend, i try to resist. but deep down i know that only God can feel that emptiness. i don't know. i feel like i need someone.
8:46 PM
