hello you (:

it sets me thinking.

why do i even allow it to haunt me? why do i even bother to remember the pain? why do i even want to hold on to the promise? why do i even want to think about it?

when all is gone it's gone...

spare me the agony spare all the pain. it's not a matter of conforming to the expectations of society. it's not societal pressure we're talking about. won't you ever grow out of it won't you ever learn? won't you ever realise you don't even understand your own faith your own religion?

it's not like we're young and it's not like we're old. it's not like you've never heard the tales that've been told. legend is a factor experience is one. so you take both and let it be done.

i'm not heartbroken i'm not a saint. so tell me who you are to make me feel this way. it's been so long we should have moved on but why do i seem to be rooted right here at this point? i've said so many times and i've given it all away but why does it still haunt me why do i still have to pay?

you've never known how much i been through till you've gone through it yourself. you led me on a wild goose chase and you confused my heart. i'm not gonna let myself waver, i'm not gonna let myself falter because i know my stand, my faith and my heart.

i don't know how to face it.

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