hello everyone. wanzhen is in a not so happy mood today. :(
or rather, i'm starting to show signs of fatigue, and it happens when i know i can't handle all that i can anymore. i feel the strain. life's taking a toll on me.
"the last thing that a fish would notice would be water."
now how true is that. we humans don't really notice or appreciate our environment till something threatens to change it. and apparently the time is near.
we're all emo because we're uncertain about whatever's gonna happen in the future. no security, little hope and perhaps full of pessimism. haha. why can't we just take whatever that is going to come in an optimistic light?
sometimes i feel that we haven't been through a lot, or maybe not enough to hold us tight together. the superficiality of it all is that we're put together in the same class, and by virtue of that fact we spend a lot of time together so we have more interaction and all. But really, what binds us together? Is it the time that we spend together? Or is it sincerely friendship? This question has got me thinking for a long time now.
by right this would have been posted somewhere else or perhaps saved as a draft, but i have no idea why i'm willing to post this up. maybe because it's really what i feel, what i think.
i hope time's not the factor that bonds us together, or even so, i hope we'll establish ties that'll lead to longer-lasting friendships that would last us for a lifetime. whatever it is, i leave it in the hands of God. (:
this wasn't supposed to be a nostalgic post, really. i'm not one who'll live life like that. it's boring. :(
the first few days of CNY are over! and i'm glad it was a good break! (: My boy is soooo cute he's such a darling and he's afraid of lions(as in those you get during CNY). hahaha. i visited the relatives of my dad's on the first day of CNY, and i got to see cousins that i haven't seen in years. the last time i recall seeing her was when i went to kuching, and that was at least 4 or 5 years back. hahaha. and i have a cousin taller than my dad! cool. hahaha.
second day was spent with the relatives over at my mum's side, and i got to see my boy! (: hehe. oh the day before we went to my aunt's house and the kids were littered all over the floor. (literally) the entire living room was filled with them and their toys as well as their mothers watching over them from the side. haha. how sweet. =D
coming back to the second day, my boy was soooo cute. (ok i think you get the point hahaha) we went over to my cousin's house which was a short walk away from my aunt's house and they engaged a lion dance troupe. when i entered the lion was already in the house so i walked over to the sofa where all the kids were seated at. The lion was about less than a ruler's distance away from the sofa and when it turned around and blinked at the kids the kids backed off hahaha so funny! and my boy was in the room crying along with his cousin yva cos he's afraid of those hahaha! so cuteeee.
the lion threw orange peel at me when i wasn't noticing.
poo.
and then we went back to my aunt's house where the troupe prepared for its next show! i couldn't be bothered to watch it this time round and i sat in front of the tv screen, watching some hilarious show haha. it's been a long time since i got a chance to watch tv. another reason why i like CNY. hee. =D
oh i caught CJ7 on the da nian chu yi along with kx,manda, huimin, james and weidong! and guess what i cried during the show. there was this touching scene! and they were all preparing for me to cry(i know that ok). and while i was tearing i was still worrying about the mascara i put earlier in the day hahaha.
chu san was a fun day! had to wake up really early to get to lala's house, and she was still in her PJs when we got there! i miss you bestie! :(( and we chatted, took a few pictures (which really isn't considered a few to zhu) and headed down to ryan and huimin's house after that. met the zee people, after which i went to amk to meet zhu! chelle goh is as late as ever she set the time for us to meet at 6 but ended up reaching zhu's house at 7.20pm. WINNER. =D
zhu's mum cooks really really nice food. she whipped up a feast for us and meanwhile i was playing 02 on zhu's comp and HAHA i'm shocked that she actually plays the game. :P i miss zhu. :(
i miss PL and all the fun we have and oh no i'm not going to get all whiny and sentimental but i'll just look back upon it as the days where everyone was so loving and innocent and all. (: in PL we love to learn and learn to love. makes sense? (:
no worries everyone, we'll tide through. (:
11:39 PM
