OK! so i declare i'm in a mood to blog now and that's what i shall do. (:
no more copy and paste hahaha!
a few days back(to be exact i think last friday!) i met dt and jiawei for pool. and randomly,
jiawei: wz, you know i've been thinking about this important issue for a very long time now.
wz: what?
jiawei: do you know why i'm always mean to you? it's because i want you to remember me for the rest of your life.
HAHA. yes ok jiawei is that just an excuse for being mean all the time! :P
but actually i don't disagree with him cos more often than not we remember every single trait of our enemies rather than our friends. it's true isn't it? how ugly is human nature.
i'm not spared of that fault.
secretly i like this part of me, which i haven't really showed in a long time. just that talking to dt now makes me reveal me. haha. i like it. time to reflect, think back on the past and how i've been living my life.
honestly speaking i haven't been living the life that is godly, or a life that is balanced. and i know it myself. i have the tendency to scold vulgarities (thank God which i haven't done) and the urge to lie but i know that if i do that i'll just let Satan get a foothold in me. because we lie so often and don't keep ourselves in check, our real personality has submerged into an artificial world.
so much so that you lose your identity.
i don't want to be a thermometer i wanna be a thermostat.
seriously i haven't really thought about life in a long while, and i haven't really found that part of me that really wants to uncover some hidden dark secret with me. i miss the times where i could be open with my friends, and tell them whatever i'm thinking. (OMG i just deja vu-ed)
i feel like a princess now, so pampered and loved, but i'd choose to be a pauper, for love comes in the most realistic and practical way.
it's there and then that you get your most precious gift, you realise who your true friends really are.
ok no i'm not in this all so pessimistic mood i'm still the retarded girl you know, just that i unleash that power inside me today. (:
life's not critical, neither am i. =D
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